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2009-01-22T11:21:00.001+08:00

hello people! will update my blog next time, sorry yaa. :D
audi's th bigbig love. anyway, me and him, ended. it's th last goodbye. dont ask me bout him anymore bah. sigh, cheers! love you all, <3

2008-12-15T15:23:00.003+08:00

Hello earthlings ~ My internet is backkkkk :D will be active back audi ~ lalala .
I Love My Baby th most :D
and of cos , my precious nuer , ONGZHILIN ! who had always been with me .
I miss my sisters too <3>
(L) Be My Lover , 08-12 <3
short post , byeeee all :D enjoy th remaining holidays :D lala , xD

2008-12-01T12:35:00.010+08:00

Helloooo all :D

wont be updating blog .

(my internet cable got prob , but will be going
lan often :D)

will still be playin audi ! -Rach , -MAIHUANLO- (L)

2008-10-31T01:59:00.003+08:00

I MISS AUDITION . I CANT PLAY NEW SONGS D:

ANDAND , CAMPUS COMING ! (LUKAA JUS TOLD ME T.T)

nothing much to blog nah . school school :D i'm good girl alr ok . at least i go school . lalal . went jurong spring fr basketball and other things * . lols :D applied fr mac . but think also going back to sales thingy . under ivan . lols . dont know la . siansxz . i wana go campus D: but only 12 can get in . hard luh . hard D: lalal , nothing to blog liaw .

i lovelove , vanesaa.o , vanessa.k meimeis ! :D:D

and of cos , my dearest joey sis , thou we didnt contact fr some time D: .

gtg , loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeees earthlings :D

2008-10-21T02:19:00.007+08:00

/ ♥ happyending .

helloo earthlings . nothing much to blog anyway . jus came to blog cos it's so dead . :D school tmr . didnt go again fr a week . teachers miss me . comecome muacksxz . laughs , crazy . tata .

ended my love , wid melvin leong . th one who make me smile and cried . it's a happy ending , cos guess it was th better decision fr both of us . it's hard to hold on to a love , that is so shallow . laughs , we both know there's better ppl out there that suit th both of us . wish you all th best :D once loved , ^^

2nd thing . ultra disappointed wid this particular someone whom i loved so deeply before . i hope you know who are you . i dont know if you do read my blog , or manbe you dont give a darn to me anymore . i wana say , fucking hell dont use how i once describe my love fr you , to describe your's to other people . come on , it's effing sickening . i hope you'd jolly well take it down . i dont wana embarrass you wid it . th love i had . sigh . jus , wadever it is . i dont like it . i hate it , I HATE IT . i msg you , lala , wadever . really .

i want to be promoted . god jesus hlp me . i know i didnt tried as hard fr EOY . bless me . promontion's day alrd over . sigh , amen x,x

* slaps myself awake from reality .

to choose to accept or reject reality , is th key to better future . to choose to accept or reject a relationship , is jus being true to oneself . if you'd only have one choice in life . wad would you do ? if you only can love one person and not regret , who would you choose ? if you had been hurt before and too afraid to accept love , would you recover and accept someone who is worth your love . if a person was good to you but you dont love him , and a person who treats you badly but you love deeply , who would you choose ? slight feelings and deep obsession . sorry , it's just random . thots to think about , th imperfections .

为什么找一个爱我但我也爱他的一个人那么难？

2008-10-12T00:27:00.002+08:00

Helloo lil earthlings, it's been long long time since i blogged . went out today, meet people. lazy to blog, i wana go audi ! :D

Love looks not with the eyes,but with the mind;And therefore is winged Cupid painted blind.
-Shakespeare(midsummer's night dream)

randomly read a love letter online, how sweet . (names are changed to xoxo)

Dear xoxo,
Love is a friendship that has caught fire, it is quiet understanding, mutual confidence, sharing and forgiving. It is loyalty through good and bad times. It settles for less than perfection and makes allowances for human weaknesses.

Love is content with the present, it hopes for the future, and it doesn't brood over the past. It's the day in and day out chronicle of irritations, problems, compromises, small disappointments, big victories, and working toward common goals.

If you have love in your life, it can make up for a great many things you lack. If you don't have it, no matter what else there is, it's not enough.

Of all the people in this world, you're the one I run to. Your name has been inscribed in my heart before I knew your name. In the moment we met all those years ago, I knew you were the one. I whisper your name each morning when I wake, and each night to the stars.

I am who I am because of you, and there is no one else I want to be. You have taught me so much about this world, and even through the times when darkness covered my world, you were always the light.

I will love you for the rest of my life, no matter what.

Love always,
xoxo.

tata all :D

2008-09-28T04:14:00.004+08:00

helloo earthlings xD nothing much to blog anyway, and it's so early now alrd. 4plus am. mac breakfast start le :P hahah, usual hang out places like namdai and jurong point. cos curfew starts alrd, 7pm. dont feel like going anywhere too. one new place i've found out, soon will be usual hangout de place le, zoom xD hohoh. going there often i guess :/ but still must see how. EOY exams start le, good luck to everyone, esp ThreeSevenB :D give it a shot, do well and promote tgt to sec4 ^^ of cos to others having exams too, all th very very best. lalalala. super tired le, D: gona sleep le. tmr mayb gota go pooling wid ahhui lesbo ! :x she wans tu giu (pool) but i wan swimming POOL. D: aiya, later den say ba, tata fr now. loads of loveees. xD

currently feeling : surprising sadness .

When you are deeply in love, heartbreak can be traumatic. If you are going through a period of heartbreak, you must accept the fact that life goes on and so must you. Face those feelings of rejection and anger by acknowledging them, dealing with them, and then achieving closure. The most important thing is to get in touch with reality.

Ever has it been that love knows not its own depth until the hour of separation. -Kahlil Gibran

The saddest thing in the world, is loving someone who used to love you. -Anonymous

Quote fr th day;

A famous adage goes as follows: "A friend is one who walks in when others walk out."

2008-09-22T01:09:00.008+08:00

MIA

i'm sorry, i know it's you. disappointed jiu disappointed ba. nvm. i'm gona go mia, take care.

leave me a msg if urgent, wont be replying in short term time.

only contactable if i contact th person myself, and going to school.

K, sorry. and i hate you. sigh.

2008-09-21T03:22:00.005+08:00

yo earthlings xD lalala ~ went parklane today. saw alot of familiar and new faces. sisters and brothers are love ! went to queensway. den got this effing xialan person. nvms, i shall elaborate tmr. wad i typed jus went missing cos of th stupid puncuation. lj D: tmr den blog.

ps:/ ihatefeburary. ihateschool. ihatepolicecurfews. D:

Love is a Universal emotion, the goal we all seek, the prize that can make our lives complete and whole. Love is both timeless and, in too many instances, transient. We all believe, if only because we must, that love can be found. Some of us - maybe most of us - have discovered it can also be lost. To love truly, is to love forever; even though the love be unrequited. -passionlove.

edit: omqs, wad i posted disappeared .__.

2008-09-18T08:13:00.007+08:00

sigh, everything changed so fast. all crashing to me, i'm hardly able to think also. omqs, hais. so failure can. i've got lots to say, it's jus too much till i dont know where to start from exactly. sigh, why does good things always had to end in a bad way. why are friends all quarreling wid me bout small issues.
Bryan, wad exactly happened to you? sigh, i really dont know leah. why do you have to keep quarreling wid me bout small issues. th conflicts that would never have had been, in th past. i'm still th girl you used to know. th anyhow-throw-temper-around rachel. it's not i who changed, it's you. where had your tolerance gone to? th care we used to had fr each other? even as friends? where had it gone to mansxz. i'm enough of having quarrels wid you. cant we jus stop quarreling. sigh. you really make me wana cry. i know you made th effort to get in audi to pei me, despite of your work ending late. but still, you cant blame me fr playing wid cpl wad? it's like, you come back so late, at least i also could have a partner to play wid right? it's not as if only we two in th room, there's so whole lot of people in audi wad. sigh. tell me wad's wrong can? i dont wana go to bed every night sobbing. D: i've always put up a strong front. but hey, i'm a girl. no matter how i tolerate everything, i'll still break down de. i know and i'm sorry. but temper in me also take times to change ma. and if change le, i'll be like another person. i really dont wana change myself, cos me is me. th rachel you know, and i know most well. sigh. maybe, i'm jus a little girl you find everywhere in th street, maybe there's alot of other good people out there. but it's up to you, fr this friendship or wadever. cos, i'm really afraid to face reality laaa. shall we jus stop quarreling? hais. D:
Andrew, utterly disappointed, you know wad i meant. dont need to apologise. blame me fr being too naive to think that nothing will change. D: sigh.
K, dont fly dont fly laaa. D: sigh. i read your blog alrd. thanks fr everything. sigh. DONT FLY D:

-sad post D: sigh.
i shall go to sleep early. i shall go school tmr.
i shall be good girl. D:

2008-09-18T08:13:00.004+08:00

helloo all earthings, back to blogging after so oh long. didnt really have th mood to blog. and had been going out last week, so yeah. no time as well. didnt go school today again, long time since i went but nevermind. i shall start going to school next week for th stupid GP (Guidance Programme). needs good attendance in school, if not later warning letter :0 so i shall be good girl for th next 6 months although it's kindof hard laa. D: curfew is just like probation mansxz, jus that there's no PO (probation officer), but still got spot check one laa, holy mama jesus christ. D: siann, needs to be home by 7pm everyday without fail. effing helly.
next ahhh, i'm so sorry andrew. couldnt wake up jus now. stupid me. overslept. and my mum didnt even call me to wake up fr school la, omqs T.T nevermind, i shall try to go out later. siann. super sorry can, to you and clarence. oh fish. D:
and to k, thanks fr always being there fr me. thanks fr tolerating my temper and showered me wid care and concern. i'll smile even i thot of words that you used to comfort me when i dont feel good. thank god fr giving me sucha good companient. ^^

'Bad news comes, don't you worry even when it lands. Good news will work its way to all them plans'. lala.

i read from a united states' couple's blog. thats how lovely, and loving they are.
quote :
Things could not be any better than having you in my life. You are my inspiration and my shoulder to cry on, you're the one who stands by me through everything and most of all, you make me know that I am loved. There is no one that completes me the way that you do. You mean everything to me.There is nothing that I would not do for you and there is no one else I would want to share my life with. You are the reason I get up each morning and come to work, and you make me look at life with a new perspective. I have never met anyone as wonderful as you. I really miss you. There are so many things that I am grateful for I can't even count. You have been there for me through thick and thin and I thank you for giving me that opportunity to get to know you and for always being there for me. You mean so much to me, it's so unbelievable that I have someone such as you. Even when I am down you are there for me. Things have been so hectic that I could not have wanted anyone to be there for me but you. You have been the stability in my life and this is just a note to let you know that I love you. Baby, you are my sun, my moon, my whole universe. I love you for who you are and what you make of me when I am with you. With the exceptions of my parents and you, there has never been anyone in my life whom I could have depended on through the tough times in my life. There are many times when you've taken what I was feeling upon yourself and I feel that it is not necessary, but I thank you for it, and I know now that I am important to you. There has never been a love that I could call love in the relationships I've had. There are so many things that I can thank you for but that will be impossible for me to do because there are so many .... Baby, I really think that this time it is for real. No one can replace you and if anything happens to you, I don't know what I'd do without you. You are the one person that I love dearly. You are my life and everything revolves around you. You seem to hold my whole life in your hands. You always make the whole room light up when you enter it, and you just know how to be my star, but you're not my star ... you are my angel. Baby, there's nothing in this world that I would not do for you! I love you!

touching eh, T.T sigh.

edit: wad th fuck. i replied all th previous msg from tb, den error. lazy reply again le. but all will be relink and so. tag me peopleeee. xD

2008-09-12T01:53:00.004+08:00

TwoLikKids, (:

SuperElmo ! <3

i'm obsessed wid elmo and audition now. wont be updating often. but will drop by nah. and all th spammer, stop being so childish la -.- :D

tags replies.

18marilyn: nuer, huew lan them nuh :D
zikunnn: iloveyou too ok :D

zikunnn: xiingan :D
PEARR.: NUER WO YE AI NI :D

yiling: lols, hi nuer :D
guoan: sigh.

Jiaxin: thankqs meimei too. :D
yongye: busy ma. ><

rinko: thankqs pretty darling ! <3>

Passerby: :)

GLH: lame and retarded.

HuiHui: okok cutecute!
18'AHGIRL{♥}: okok, i'll link you :D

jiali: i also blur. haha. love you.

S. Shermin: I miss you too sis ! :D
GLH: -.-

2008-09-02T19:40:00.004+08:00

lazy blog :x

tags replies.
unknown: parklane de lanshop la arboh wher, toilet?

jiali: haha, okok. lovessss. :D
passer by: hong gan la hor. childish. humjikuey.
pb..: ya la. totally agree.
.: laughs, ya lor.
GLH: cb i have you dont have you jealous la nahbeh. wan tmr parklane 2pm la. no come down hum ji. saturday you think everyone like you so free arx. come on la. or you want wait until christmas? bo tai bo ji come my blog say not happy. knn.
siaoEh: -.- lame la. hum ji no name?

VANESSA.♥: MEIMEI ! alrights, i'll text you sooon (:

conclusion fr th post : there's so many bo liao ppl in this world.

2008-09-02T01:02:00.002+08:00

tags replies.

ChunBoon: helloooo :D you too.
Vanessa: okok i will ! :D love hershey.
AW AH AW: YO AR YO, SIO YI HO LA HOR.
unknown: at least pb got th rights, not you.
pb..: haha, (:

GLH: not happy come down parklane lor. :D no time fr you, faggot.
unknown: wu ji lai, qi kua mai lor.

unknown: so wad. we charboh zhui eh sai, wher like you. humji till name also dont wan write la hor.

pb..: okok alrights. :D

Jiaxin: MEIMEI ! <3

Jiali: lovelove you, relax uhh :D

2008-08-31T21:35:00.005+08:00

long lost pic :D

so long didnt blog. cos i think i've been spending too much time outside, in resulting of getting too tired. laughs. think i wont blog much cos i'm going in audi. and another thing. guess i should delete away all th unwelcomed/anon tags or jus close my tagboard. i saw my tagboard, and nearly faint. it's like. wad th fuck?

tags replies.

pamela: erm, who're you. why scold jiali ? .___.
passerby: er, think so? hahha. who're you.
jiali: JIALI is loved tooo !
shaun: who are you?
pb..: you are? thanks anyway.
shaun: -.-
unknown.: you also nvr go down, say wad fuck.
AhKid: okok.
Tatsujin: you are?
.♥ J O E Y: SISSSTERRR, love you too. :D
VANESSA.♥: MEIMEI! sometime got, sometime nvr :x
Yvonne: honeystead! :D
Hanif: SHUT TH FUCK UP. AND I DONT NEED YOU TO COMMENT ANY THING CHILIDISH FAGGOT. WAN FUCK GO GEYLANG LA HOR. NINAHBEHPCB. POLLUTE MY TAGBOARD.
PANGPANG: hello. :D
xp: meimei ! saw ya today :D
xinhue: it's okay. love you !
cy: fine.
.♥ J O E Y: yep sissssy. loves you loads.
LàNzÉr: :D:D:D:D wuxim !
¹8 Devil: lol.

2008-08-26T22:54:00.002+08:00

today, had tons of fun wid sister. love her like hell. i love joey sisterrr yo ! :D we crapped like shyt mansxz. aft school, we went to je. went bank, den trained and bused home tgt. changed and we both came out. sorry fr waiting ! :x used to jurong point. fr dinner first :D had mac. den went shk. got a funny conver, which goes roughly like this.

*joeysis: why you got next chill nvr give me!

*me: why you got viceroy nvr give me also!

conclusion, actl both had viceroy. haha, lame xD

so funny de can. got alot more, which i forgot. met one of my fren, sis say look like monster. ops! but i somehow agreed la. cos, so scary. lala, next next. er aiyo. die. i forgot wad we did alrd. -.- played para, ddr and rf5. :D ended up, we both broke. first time we two tgt till so late. haha. we both went home ard 10. if not wrong. imissher liao. how :D hehes.

let's hang out more. love sister! yoaryo too :D

epgq. <3

2008-08-25T01:08:00.003+08:00

i shall not blog fr every long. cos it's late now and tmr got school. alright, i mean later today. sianed half. saturday; went parklane. saw alot sisters and brothers. cheers. (: shall not elaborate much. went to relative's house to stay overnight. sunday afternoon met pearlyn at jp. raining heavily. D: nothing much. played para and ddr. have dinner, buy studs and go home. lazy to blog uh. so guess should jus end here. lastly, i love all sisters and brothers ! :D

tags replies.
meiixinn: who th fuck are you, and you huan lo !
Christabel: okok.

Qianyi: alrights :D
.♥ J O E Y: iloveyousissy!
jiali: haha, yeah luh. miss you ! ily.

jiali: yeah, happy to see you. gao xing daoooo ~ haha. :D

SARAHH: hihi xD
.♥ J O E Y: SISSY! haha.

sigh,

this would be a lil post fr everyone. i loved. before. now. and wadever.

Henry; maybe i dont stand a part in your heart anymore. sorry is more den wadever i can say. it's not possible fr us to be tgt le ba i guess. cos i took a single step out of your life. and you didnt hold on to me. maybe, th greatest love, is just to let go.

Devil; i'm sorry. i couldnt bring myself to any decision. and th misunderstanding really discouraged me alot. i know. you're not in th wrong. ahboi and maurice vowed fr you. alright you see, th fault lies with me. sorry.

ChongBeng; sorry. also i couldnt give any answer to you. i really really very fan. i realised i'm so useless in relativeships. mayb you wont give a damn to my blog. but still, i shall say everything here. thanks fr th care you showered me with.

Lanzer; wuxim (: here you go. must take care. see you so kelian de wor. you made me realise alot wif your nonsense too. and wad you said made alot of sense. thanks mr wuxim ! and wad you said is super sweet, thou you might/might not mean it. 'i boxim, cause my xim wid you alrd'. ahha, it really brighten up my day. simple words.

WenPing; you changed alot. thou we have topics to talk about. you really changed. when i say, you also not my who, and you said you will jio back. i really stun. you wasnt tat kind. i dont know to feel happy or sad, exactly. sigh.

Andy; ben ben de gan stead. jiayou on th girl you like. and thanks fr being thr fr me always.

Xinhue; goooood fren ! :D you're of great company. being wid you feels secured.

JianHong; my bestest korkor. ever. i know, maybe you had alot of enermy outside now or wad le. i'll still be by your side. wo ai wo de bao bei kor kor. :D

PeiYang; precious. you too, thanks fr everything xingan. your care and concern. how cute. (: takkaire when you in army. it'll be soon le. i hope you can cope well. anyway, faster meetup!

QingHui; thanks too. fr today and yesterdays. fr th time you've been wid me. regardless of weather. :x in th sun/ or in th rain. playing ddr, playing wid water. i appreciate them (:

allmysisters/brothers; yoaryo ! wanshui. love you guys. <3

alright, nothing much. lastly.

TEOYIRONG IS HONGSTER. fuck yourself. go corner fuck spider la dumb.

ahem* relax.

play audi come come ! :D

let's play tmr .

ign: -18-MrsCute

2008-08-22T23:11:00.002+08:00

back to posting. i FINALLY, like. went to school after so long? rumours are spreading like shyt thanks to meldon. thankfully i cleared all th stupid misunderstandings caused. nvmind, nvmind. aft school, went wid joeysis to meet xinhue at her school. went block, saw quite alot of ppl. lazy to type out. lols, left not long cos they need to go back school fr their focus test. sorry sis, i was nag by my parents, damn irratating. but thank god, tmr i can effing hell come out :D. went out to get my skinny and dinner. went wid devil. den saw weiren, william and xiaver short de at bicycle shop :x chatted awhile. den i went to eat first wid devil. then saw andy. WTF LA. th stupid car driver who fucking hell knock him down his bicycle and ran away. i curse your whole family mansxz. th effing driver NVR hlp him somemore. watch your ass man, next time people bang you, and run, i laugh. _l_ i hope andy's okay now. lent him to pay fr his bic first. see i'm a good fren. tmr i'll go and get it paid. yeah wadever. i'm a good good fren. yay yay. crazy .___. kk nvm . chatted again. this time longer. went back earli. cos if not parents will start nagging again. thats all. nothing much. out tmr ! lovesloves people.

Jacky, not happy? tmr come and talk. (:

simple and sweet. no need reply. jus turn up. hahs.

tags replies to;

velvet: okok, i'll look fr you. dun worry. will fan you de. hahah!

passerby: she's shermaine. why? laughs.

2008-08-22T00:01:00.004+08:00

random pic, taken today. hah, i mean ytd since it past 12.

tags replies.
lolx: who you?
Ray: laughs !
jiali: miss you alot too ! meetup soon, love.
xp: meimei ! okok :D loves.
18bOi: laughs :D
¹8 Devil: :D <3

JACKY: special reply fr you leah. laughs. hey come on, kid. one time hai kim, now siao? peng also peng so fast arx. ohmy ohmy. -.- so wad if he zhao you? you yourself buey sai arx. my toes are laughin mansxz. and now if you come spam me with nonsense, why i must find him? hey hello. now is who asking fr trouble in th first place la. who gan until family first? please la hor, grow up. why you so USELESS one? this i must caps. keep spam then now find ppl hlp? wtf is that?
laughs again*. little kiddo i must say, go learn some manners. i wonder why your parents brought up a child like that. super sad case. i remorse fr them. once again, if you so eh sai. come out talk. or you leave th number of whoever who zhao you de. lets see who's right and who's wrong. first, i dont even know who th hell are you, and you sudden tag me with, shyt? second, i dont find a reason why you must gan my family when i didnt scolded yours at first. third, now is you play shirt play hai kim and siao zhao you? heyhey, no link. :D forth, this is my blog, and i dont see why you must tag. fifth, if you dont like me, jus come straight to my face and say. talk here is so-oh no use. tata, waste of time :D

2008-08-21T02:05:00.003+08:00

To Jakcy: hello childish spammer. whata lil kiddo there. hai kim gina pbt? laughs, i know. but i dont understand one thing. did i ever say anything bout 'hai kim' or wad? first i didnt. second, i respect them wid my frens inside. third, if you so eh sai. or mayb you are in hk, why so humji? put name put numbr down la. so wad if i'm a slut or not. also not you. huan lo? please la so childish. go get some books and learn some knowledge. you english failed or wad? you teacher never teach you wad's th meaning of slut arx? sorry to say. slut is refering to someone like you, i guess. laughs. and i havent seen anyone as childish as you yet. tagging people like, this is your place or wad? come on, cyber bullying is bad. HAHA. if you even bother replying, please leave down your particular, easy fr me to contact. cause, replying here is so stupid. oh, i wont use my gang or wadever blahblah to teh you de, dont so worry. cause i know you are so. erm, no guts. ok tata. talking to you. i mean, replying. is so a waste of my time. -.- whatcha pathetic shyt. xD

2008-08-20T02:31:00.003+08:00

spammer: dun have so much time, to reply so many pathetic shyt. come on, spamming isnt fun. so no life can? please la, not happy jus come out talk everything. people's blog leah, HELLO. and you scold please mind your stupid manners, i got gan your family anot first? please la, get you fucking ass up, suck your mum's milk little kid. childish la hor. _l_ retarded fucktard. ops, sorry arx, forget. you're still a three year old kid. oh, sayang. -.- lame piece of shyt. wu ji lai only. qi kua mai. i wait la hor. faggots. and even if how suck i look like, it wun hurt you at all wad. huan tio you meh? please la, not as if you will lose one piece of meat like tat. -.-

¹8 Devil: :D
♥愛qianhua: okok miss you too.
Joyi: ps, kind of busy.
PANGXINYI: hah, okok.
LàNzÉr: lanzer arx lanzer! okok :D haha.
JEANNE: okok meimei.
LàNzÉr: sry uh,. :D
marilyn -nuers: okok . tag le.
LLK-Liting (: :D
jasmine: who th fuck are you?

2008-08-14T22:53:00.003+08:00

song time didnt blog le. so bored. life's getting a lil sweeter n alil bitter . sigh. confused bout thing, but i dun wana elaborate. sigh, jus wana update my blog fr th sake of updating. my attendance in school is super de bad de lo. i wish things were better n i could have jus alil bit more freedom. saddening life. wadever ba. gotcha end le. byebye folks.

tags replies
yiling: nuer ! :D
JEANNE: MEI ! miss you too.
yiling: nuer, i love you toooooo!

GRACEPEH♡: okok i know. loves.

♥ Shireen: oh okok, it's ok den :D

2008-08-10T17:54:00.008+08:00

back to blogging again. things are going better. and i've decided to go back to school. i told my parents, i cannot say that i'll do well, also not overslept. i'll jus try to go. yeah, wadever mansxzxz. ytd national went to darn load of places. decide not to elaborate too much cos lazy la. only know, met elaine nuer, wenhong, saw grace, xiaojason, jiajun they all, den also meet serkit cutecute and his frens. dun know le, super lazy and tired. tmr go out, anyone ? :D anyway, i've ALSO decided not to bother much bout relationships alrd. super stress bohdoh. but never mind. it's over. game over. full stop. i jus wana start everything anew. to who ever i might b wid next time. yea. nothing much. gotcha end. i wan go play game liaw :x lala, byebye. good day (:

tags replies.
MEIQI: SISTER ! okok can :D
RY N, Huiqing (:: okok, thanks so much. love you loads, see you in school den, ok ? hugs, and misses too.
MiLkTeax3: lols, you fa shen jing le :o

jiali: okok, loves you alot.

jason: first, i dun know who are you so dun bother bout my business la hor. second, dun come talk this lj reasons wid me if you dun even know wad th hell is happening. third, who's th one not contacting ME, and not even an sms. ask him want to meet or not, den say wid his friend. hey please, wad kind of person is tat you tell me. if your girlfren la hor, is like that, you can take it anot. if can you tell me la i bwg. forth, now you not happy wad ? you also not him. fifth, EVEN AS A FRIEND YOU DONT HAV TH RIGHTS TO EVEN COMMENT. COS, YOU JUS FUCKING DUN KNOW WAD IS HAPPENING, SO DONT TAG ME UNTIL LIKE THAT. THANKYOU.
RY N, Huiqing (:: okok (:
LEANNE: erm i'm kind of fine alrd (; loves. misses.
xinhue: never forget you ! miss you like shyt :D
ChunBoon: you cute la ! ass :D

♥J: zhi nu ! loves you laaa, faster meetup i wan see you. mayb in school arx ? okok, not sad le, xiexie wor. miss you leah :}
ChunBoon: not sad le, cute.

2008-08-08T18:16:00.003+08:00

2nd post fr th day. i must say, things really dun go well. i cried jus now. after talking to my dad and mum. my mum told my dad bout th letter i wrote, all my heart felt words. it's a thousand words essay, mind you. i really did wrote how i felt inside. and my mum told my dad. cos i didnt have th courage to. to quit school or not. seems not a difficult choice, n most of you might choose to quit. but think again, no school technically equals to no future. my dad shaked some sense into me. my mum asked me to at least complete my N's. they dun wana me to quit. but i really dont hav th heart to study. darn you, school. life would have been more better without school. however, i might suffer more next time ? i dun know siaaaaaaaaaa. ohtiansxz. save me from this. but seriously even if i go school, also not my will. it's jus cos of my parents. which parents dun wan their child to do well ? unless they had really given up. i think i really should go and think about, to continue school or not. sigh. someone enlighten me ? i feel like, but also dun feel like. so contradict can ! farks. over th weekends i really need to go and think. Properly. now in this super realistic world, no qualification = no job. no job = no moneh. no moneh = no life. lolz. wadthfark. i wan a choice tat pleased myself and my parents. but nothing seems to be th way out. darn. hais. god please bless bless bless meeeeeeeeeeeee. D: loves, misses.

tags replies.
! RY N, Huiqing (: i miss you too (:
Huiimeiix: i dun see a need to answer. anyway who are you ?

xp: take care hur meimei :D meetup soooon.

jiali: yi qi jiayou :D yi qi kai xin. loves you ! (: meetup sooon darling.

2008-08-08T10:16:00.003+08:00

Everything sucked like normal. and things aren't getting any better, but worst. how on earth can i survive thru i also dun know. things are getting all out of hand. even too difficult to handle. this is jus a general prolock to my starting of blogging this post. life's miserable. ohmansxz. i hate school, but missed all my friends. and maybe th books. -.- 1week. whole week not a day in school. felt bored thou, rachel missed th school. holymama. first time hear rachel miss school ? maybe no stress from school is getting a lil weird. sigh. i realised, all parents are unreasonable. or maybe, too reasonable alrd. kids are always wrong la, i know. no matter wad we can debate wif them, we'll always lose. like today. i debate wid my dad to go out, in th end also lose. -.- sorry marilyn nuer, clarkson erzi and kelvin sweetheart, fr not going to bishan ITE wid you all to help out. my too-reasonable parents dun effing hell let me out. to be cool, i argued wid all my most reasonable reasons, yet, they can still beat me off. i dun know how, i really dun know how. can anyone teach me how to be a good daughter ? no matter how effing hard i tried, i'm always not th good girl in their eye. study. fr shyt? i've totally no interest in it. darn it la. i thot, so stupidly thot by telling them how i felt will help. in th end ? nothing changes. i still got blamed fr not knowing how to think. mum said yesterday, she'll sit down and have a good chat wid me. end up wad, we didnt even sat down together th whole night yesterday. talk wad ? we dun have good communication. sadness. i really really need a good chat wid mum and dad. or fr th matter, mum only. cant i even have th time, jus to sit down and talk ? i think i'm so a failure. next is r/s, i'm th most, idiot girl in th world. i admit myself. i cant handle everything well. my family, my relationship, my studies. sucha retarded. henry, sorry fr all th broken promise. once again, this part is fr you. i dun know if you would actl read my blog. but seriously, all i've told you are true. one thing is, i didnt played wid your feelings. if you insisted den i'll have nothing much more to say. i sms you everything that i need to be clear wid you. everything. up to you to believe or not. everytime i do something, most probably i may regret in a later time. but i'm still trying. trying to do everything that i wont regret. not now, not in th future. sigh, i'm really sorry. yirong, i know you would nvr read my blog. but i'll still have to tell you. i know we've drifted apart, just so much. i dun wish to hav any bad endings, nor i wish fr good ending. yeah, wadever. th best fr me is not to do anything. let nature take it course. fate. fate is th thing that will leads us to our life. i believe. may fate bring me my dearest. next, wh, i dun know if you would read, i doubt. but blog is jus like talking on my behalf, so i think i should jus blog everything out. sorry, but give me more time to think can ? really sorry. stress stress stress. later i explode how. everyone is pushing me to make decisions. but how holymama can i make when i have to think den everyone keep on saying. i rather go bang th wall and die earlier suah le. sigh, sadness la ! piangehs. can life get back to th past? simple, and sweet. god bless me. thanks people who had been wid me all this while.

god, may you bless me wid all th lucks, shield me from all th fears. give me guildance thru out everything in my life. a-men.

loves people, takkaire goodbye. ♥

2008-08-06T16:50:00.002+08:00

hasn't been going to school, nothing much to post. sick. everyday stayed at home. effing hell . men si wo le. did nothing but played comp and watch tv. imagine life like that, so . no life. T.T nvr mind. jus short post here. blog again next time ba. loves.

tags replies.
GRACEPEH♡: yeah ! missed th fun :D meetup soon again, loves.

yiling: love nuer loads tooo !
jiali: dun sad arx. miss ue. meetup soooon :D

XIAOQIAN♥: Candyfloss ! love.
Huiimeiix: huh._.

JOLENE: i'll give ue bigbig hug tooooo :D

♥ J O E Y: Sissy yeahs, thanks.
andy: sigh, think first baaa.

Jiaxin: mei ! will de.
yiling: okok nuer :D thanks love you.

2008-08-04T17:02:00.000+08:00

it's long long time since i blog alrd. many things happen, which some i really dun wish to blog about. but still, i'll still hav to blog out, to some particular people. mayb most of ue should know who alrd, guarding from how seriously i've type so far. :x how to start, i also not sure. but one thing i'm sure of, i'm sorry. to *****, i know i've broke ur heart. and i dun wish to hide/avoid ue cos we broke up or wadever shyt. tat's why, i contact ue to make everything clear to ue. ue should know wad i mean, i hope. relationship isn't a one sided kind of thing. i know, i'm wrong. but at th beginning of this relationship. i started with only a try out. i know, i loved ue. but ue see, it's alrd past tense. quarrels made me lost all th trust i have, n also, i realise i cant actl continue th relationship. it's hard, ue know? i think everyone thinks tat i'm wrong fr initiating this break up. cos ue all see no reason in it. but ue all are not me, so dun give me stupid comments like, 'eh he treat ue so nice, den ue break up, ue play his feelings is it?' or something like 'girl, dun be so childish to play with people feeling la, not everyone like ue, hongster.' hey come on, anyone who say this to me, shut th fuck up la hor. ue all knows anything ma ? no. pls la dun come step one liaw jie us. ok wadever. this two days i realise alot of things as well, apart from relationships. i ran home two days again. this time was worst. n i dun think i should alrd elaborate it. my dad enlighten me alot. i cried hard. how does it feeel like losing a kin. how many of us had actl felt it deeply before? dad said, ue know when ur mum cant find ue, th feeling is terrible, cos she dun know wad happened to ue. i thot thru, it really makes alot of sense. imagine one day ue wake up, ue cant contact any of ur love ones, how would ue feel ? sure terrible. but we're far too young to understand anything thing like this. i guess, people reading my blog, should be at ultimate shock to see. rachel type this kinds of things. waa, tian ta xia lai liao. lol. -.- but still, ya wadever (: short period of time not going to schl. including tmr and th day aft i guess. people, dun miss me (: i'll be glad to hear if ue all miss me thou. aha. stupid. sorry fr not paragraphing. and making everything cramp tgt. hop fr a better tmr. loves, folks.

baby, imissyou. i wan us to last, D:
th feeling's bad without you. sigh.
i dun wan ue to treat me colder n colder.
i jus love you. <3

tags replies.
unknown: i renew th blog. means, past post wun be appearing anymore. (:
JOLENE: Couple, thanks, i love ue !
♥`DalpreetGirlfee: haha, will be back, sooon. i guess.
ChunBoon: lols, i also know ! hahah, always c ue. haha.
yiling: nuer, love ue too. okok (:
xp: MEIMEI :D thankqs.

2008-07-31T22:22:00.000+08:00

I renewed my blog. no more pass postes in this blog, cos i changed th entire thing, but didn't del th postes in th old one of cos. sigh. no mood. goodbye.

tags replies.
♥ Shireen: yeahhh, i went . but didnt saw ue ?
Pearlyn [: nuer , i love ue too !
rachel.t: ok can.
Deborah♥: Jie. :D er, we broke up . er, but nvr mind. meet up soooooony.
jianhong: give ue le.
yiling: nuer ! ofcos. miss ue. :D
MARILYN: NUERS ARE LOVED TOO :D
Meiqi: sister ! miss ue also leah !
`Dalpreet.: Hellos , girlfee !!
J.OEY ♥: okok cuteybabe.
.♥ J O E Y: I LOVE FRIENDSTER TOO !
SARAHH: okok :D